Not in a very good mood today. Or rather, not in a very good mood ever since i went to Derrick's dad's funeral. I guess inside my mind, tt visit did trigger certain unhappy memories in the past, to the extent tt it resulted in me having the same o'nightmare again last nite.

In the end, i woke up in quite a bad mood this morning. Tried to lift my spirits by toking some cock-and-bull with my classmates, but i didn't seem to have some interest at all.

Damn, this ain't gd. I'm starting to lose control of my emotions.

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I'm seriously quite turned off by the Sabah trip. Tml's the last day to hand in the money, which means i got the whole of tonite to debate with myself whether to go or not.

At first, i was quite tempted to go, until i realised i was the only loner there la. Blame it on my jiao kia classmates, we all agreed to go for this time's YEP and they conveniently pushed it off by saying wat, $400 is too expensive and they rather use the money somewhere else and etc.

The worse part was, i was discussing with a classmate on how interested i was, so the next day, he helped me to collect a form to fill in my particulars. And of course he's going, since he's got his own gang going along with him, so he need not worry abt going there alone or sth.

So it's like, i'm the only guy there with no gang with him, so i'm probably gonna be either bored to death or tinking tt the $400 was wasted.

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Btw, this is not an emo post, so for goodness sake, dun call me and ask if i'm ok the moment u read this.

Not very good, but not very bad either.

i've got attitude; 5:31 pm

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